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Will Update Soon…
December 11, 2009, 6:33 pm
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Must study more…must study.

See my flickr page for new experiments in procrastination I mean photography.

I’ve been taking photos for years and in college had the wonderful opportunity to use big expensive cameras like the amazing Cannon EOS-20D and Cannon EOS-1D while working for my college’s newspaper.


Like all photographers, I took at least 50 photos for every 1 that was published. So, I have plenty of photos that can be the subjects of my experimentation.
When I worked for the newspaper I basically just took the photos and my good friend and boss (aka Photo Editor) Nick did any editing. As a result all the photos I post to my Flickr page are pretty much unaltered. So this is a new area for me.
Leave comments on the Flickr page!

Love and Peace,
Me



Today Barack Obama is the man (again)

Though much of the “honeymoon period” of Obama’s presidency has ended and we are finally realizing that it will take much effort and time to undo all the wrongs and injustices that George W. Bush’s eight years, today Barack Obama was awarded the Nobel Peace Prize.

This is wonderful.  However, what is even better is President Obama’s reaction to winning the prize.

To be honest, I do not feel that I deserve to be in the company of so many of the transformative figures who’ve been honored by this prize — men and women who’ve inspired me and inspired the entire world through their courageous pursuit of peace.

But I also know that throughout history the Nobel Peace Prize has not just been used to honor specific achievement; it’s also been used as a means to give momentum to a set of causes.

Dr. Martin Luther King Jr said that his Nobel Peace Prize was “also a commission — a commission to work harder than I had ever worked before for ‘the brotherhood of man.’”

Dr. King’s Nobel Peace Prize acceptance speech is worth reading.

Dr. King was right when he said, “Sooner or later all the people of the world will have to discover a way to live together in peace, and thereby transform this pending cosmic elegy into a creative psalm of brotherhood. If this is to be achieved, man must evolve for all human conflict a method which rejects revenge, aggression and retaliation. The foundation of such a method is love.”

Barack Obama acknowledges that the prize is not so much a reward for a completed effort but rather a reminder, almost a burden, that there is still work to be done.  That we shall overcome.  That we are all part of the effort for a peaceful world.  Barack Obama is being honored for his work in international diplomacy and efforts for a world free of nuclear weapons even though the we are still on the journey.



Woah! A new post!
August 13, 2009, 4:48 am
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It has been some time since I updated this blogthingey.

Things have changed quite a bit.  I am currently unemployed and in the process of becoming re-employed.  Hopefully at the same institution but with a different boss. [It is a long and sordid story but the summary is that I did nothing wrong.]

Aside from applying for every job possible, I’ve been studying for the MCAT.  So life has been…boring.

But I do have time to think about things.

Something happened today and I’ve been thinking about it quite a bit. Here is the story:

I’m at the store paying for my groceries when a woman appears in the line next to me.  The woman has a transparent purse that allows everyone to see the contents of her purse.  I glance over at her purse, now perched on the checkout counter and count 5 pill bottles and one Rx cough syrup bottle in addition to the packs of cigarets.  I can clearly read the prescriptions on about 3 of the bottles.  All were for very powerful opiates.  Then the woman placed her purchase item, a handle of really cheap whiskey, on the counter and mentions something about “really needing this (the whiskey)” tonight.  Then she mentioned something about tomorrow being her pay day and that she would be back for more alcohol after she gets paid.

The future doctor/current scientist in me sees red flags everywhere.  Alcohol and opiates don’t mix.  The reason why your doctor tells you not to drink while taking certain medications and the reason your pharmacist puts a little sticker that says “DO NOT TAKE THIS DRUG WITH ALCOHOL” is that taking really strong opiates with alcohol can kill you.  As in dead.

The woman had at least 3 bottles of different opiates (those are just the ones I could see while glancing inconspicuously).   I had a momentary moral dilemma.  Should I tell the lady about the dangers of mixing the drugs in her purse with alcohol or should I just assume that she has been properly informed of the complex biochemical actions that mixing the drugs could cause?

I left the store still pondering what to do.  Luckily she exited just after me.  I approached her and gently asked, “Ma’am?” Once I got her attention I said, “I noticed the prescriptions in your bag.  You do know that it is very dangerous to mix those with alcohol, right?”

Her reply was- “My doctor gave me these drugs.”  OK…maybe her doctor is an idiot…so I tried again with a more blunt tactic.  I told her that the drugs in her bag could be very dangerous if mixed with alcohol.  For a moment she pondered my statement then informed me that she only mixes them “at night”.  I replied with, “doing that could kill you. Trust me.”

I reiterated the danger and possibility of death thing, hoping that something would stick in her head.  I don’t know if it will.  I’m glad I said something but I doubt my words will change her actions.  For her, the drugs (which were really powerful painkillers but she didn’t seem like she was in pain (I know that pain isn’t visible but people who need fentanyl are generally REALLY sick.  Sick and in so much pain that is not responsive to weaker opiates like…morphine. (Morphine is actually very strong but fentanyl is 80 times stronger than morphine)) probably were needed at some point.  Opiates are notoriously addictive because of the way they affect the brain.  They make the brain feel good.  Warm and fuzzy.  Alcohol is also a drug with the same effects.

The woman probably needed the drugs at some point for surgery or something but the fact that she is adding alcohol is an indication that the high isn’t working anymore so she has to pour more and more chemicals on her brain to get the desired effect.

The big problem isn’t so much that the woman is taking insanely strong drugs, or that she is buying terrible whiskey.  The real problem is that she doesn’t seem to understand that the pills and the alcohol are both respiratory depressants.  Mixing them can transform a passed out drunk person into a passed out drunk who is so sedated that they can’t wake up if something happens.  At this point the person can die from simply not breathing enough, or they could vomit and aspirate the vomit or their respiratory center in the brain can get so doped up that it forgets to make the body breathe.

I really wanted to sit down with the woman and explain the action and effects of each of the drugs (including alcohol) in excruciating detail then talk to her doctor to bring the dangerous actions to their attention.

But I’m not a doctor yet.  I did what I could.  I told her that her behavior was dangerous.  I just hope she doesn’t OD or something like that.

So there is your depressing glimpse of life for some people.

Don’t be stupid.

Please.

Also, (to the universe) give me my damn job back.



Life isn’t fair.
June 17, 2009, 3:58 am
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Right now, I’m annoyed with god or whoever runs things in the universe.

Why do bad things happen to good people?

Why are some people evil?

Why do some people suffer while others lounge in luxury?

Why do I think about these things so much?

What I do know is that it is not fair that two of my very good friends have very bad cancer.  It isn’t fair that babies and kids at the hospital where I work have cancer.

It isn’t fair that some babies never make it to their first birthday.  Do you know how many babies die before 12 months of age in Memphis? Too many.  The infant mortality rate in parts of Memphis is 19 deaths per 1,000 live births.  A baby has a better chance of survival being born on the Gaza Strip or Sri Lanka than Memphis.  Back in college, I helped run a group called SCIPE (Grinnell College Student Campaign for Increased Political Engagement).  We once invited experts on healthcare to come to campus and debate whether the US would benefit from universal healthcare.  While doing background research I learned the dirty secret of Memphis, an infant mortality rate that is higher than many “developing countries”.  I was furious and felt guilty that something so easily preventable was happening in “my” city.  I don’t know why I felt guilty as an 18 year old college student nearly 1,000 miles from Memphis but I did.

It isn’t fair that the USA has spent god knows how many billion dollars bombing civilians.  It isn’t fair that the civilians are called “collateral damage”.

Every time someone tells me that some tragedy is “part of the divine plan” I want to meet the maker of this “plan” and ask him/her/it/they if the suffering of one baby or one family or one nation is really worth it.  Does everything have to balance?  Why can’t good things happen to good people?  Why can’t “bad people” (I’m not sure anyone is ever fully “bad” or “evil”) change for the better?

Most importantly to me, what can I do to make things better?

I know I won’t ever give up.  That is just the way I am.  I’ll keep repeating Gandhi, “Whatever you do may seem insignificant, but it is most important that you do it” even when it seems meaningless.

The good news is that these questions have been plaguing me for years, preventing me from ever being too comfortable.  Always forcing me to try to change things in any way I can.



Why I love Grinnell

One of the many reasons I love Grinnell is the annual student film festival, Titular Head.  Many amazing works of cinematography have appeared at TitHead over the years including, “Racquetball Tunak Tunak Tun” , an epic tale of two college students playing a game of racquetball so intense that it knows no bounds.  Another noteworthy film is “Weapon of Choice” by my friend, Patrick Murray.  A spoof of a spoof is always pretty good but, “Tulat“ Dhiern Patik’s spof of Borat is especially well done (I’m biased though because I know just about everybody in the film).  Another wonderful film, “The Flesh and the Foam” was brilliant but unfortunately was unable to be screened or released because of nudity.

However, in the year since I graduated, the Titualr Head Film to end all Films, has been created.  ”Star Wars Grinnell” created by Henry Reich (one of the colleges’ top long distance runners and easily on of the most talented students on campus) starring his little brother Alex as a Jedi Knight.  In a physics classroom where I spent many, many hours, Alex uses his Jedi mind control to make the professor (played by the charming Randy Brush) change his exam grade from an “F” to an “A”.  The action continues and the special effects are spectacular.  Though the story-line is a bit… disjointed, the film is well deserving of it’s first place prize. 

 

The next time somebody asks me why I went to Grinnell, I will tell them to simply search “Titular Head Grinnell” on youtube.  

Grinnell is amazing.  I wish I were there.

 

Other noteworthy films include:

Bend it Like Bala- starring my friend Rup as Bala the soccer guru

‘The Passion of the Omana’- which isn’t online anymore

A Young Bolshevik in Grinnell



I love Iowa.
April 3, 2009, 9:16 pm
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Today Iowa made gay marriage legal.

Even though I am not gay, I’m so proud of Iowa.  I spent four wonderful years in a small college in Iowa and I can truly say that Iowans are some of the nicest people on Earth.

You can read the summary of the proceedings here.

Shoeless Joe Jackson: Hey, is this heaven?
Ray Kinsella: No, it’s Iowa.


A Moment in Time…Seeing Injustice
February 27, 2009, 3:32 am
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The man sat on the slim peninsula of land that divides East Parkway.  He held a tattered cardboard sign, I was too far away to read it but I knew what it said.  “Homeless and hungry”.  I had seen the man often, always slumped against a pole holding his sign.   There were three cars ahead of me at the intersection where the man sat.  I had just taken a bite out of my breakfast biscuit when the light changed.  Suddenly cars were moving and I found myself cranking my window down and handing the man my breakfast as I drove by. Giving the man my food wasn’t a choice.  It just made sense, I had food but he didn’t.  I watched him as I drove by and noticed things about the man I had never seen before.  My eyes darted, first to his arm as he reached for the food.  The man labored to move his right arm towards me, even though his left side was nearer to me.  I then saw his left arm hanging limply by his side.  As I observed the man I noted the two strands of saliva hanging from his beard.  He turned towards me and mumbled his thanks, his words slurred and slow, as if the sound  was being stretched as it left his lips.  He smiled a crooked smile, exposing his swollen and bleeding gums.  His eyes are what really jarred me.  The brilliant blue orbs seemed to move in slow motion and out of synch as he turned look at me.  His eyes never quite met mine, the milky blue of his irises was made more striking by his yellow sclera (the “whites” of the eye).

 

As I drove away, the things I had noticed about the man coalesced in my mind.  I am a scientist and will be a physician eventually.  His lack of left sided movement, slurred speech and drooling are all indicators of damage from a stroke.  By smiling the man revealed what is most likely the manifestation of a lack of vitamin C and other essential nutrients.  Though we usually associate scurvy with pirates, it can and does occur among the elderly and alcoholic, even in America.  His eyes were striking both for their beauty and for how much they spoke about the man’s life.  The milky white covering that somewhat veiled the blue of his irises could be cataracts, or a manifestation of a malnutrition.  His yellow sclerae are almost certainly a consequence of liver disease.  

 

The man’s very countenance revealed much about his life.  The man is destitute and ill, in need of medical and possibly psychiatric care.  The cold reality is that it takes time, often a long time, for a person to develop the problems the man with the sign had.  As I continued my commute I kept thinking “this isn’t right”.  No matter what vices this man was facing and no matter how many poor choices he may have made, the man, and all people, deserve a second chance.  All people should have the right to proper medical care.  Proper medical care doesn’t stop after treating the symptoms.  Proper medical care considers the whole person and combines medicine, pastoral care, counseling and social work to heal a person rather than a disease.  

 

I arrived at the research hospital where I work wondering, with sadness and indignation rising by the second, how many people had passed by the man without noticing or without caring.  Wondering how many times I had averted my eyes as I passed the man.  Wondering how many more people were in the same position as this man.  

 

I don’t know how to fix a society where people are left behind, ignored, abused or oppressed but I do know that I can do something, however small, to help people in need.  There is something that unites all humans.  If we truly love each other and respect others in the way many great philosophers have described (Martin Buber’s “Ich-Du” or “I-Thou”, Buddha’s teaching about respect for all living, Dr. Martin Luther King Jr’s call “for a worldwide fellowship that lifts neighborly concern beyond one’s tribe, race, class, and nation is in reality a call for an all-embracing and unconditional love for all mankind” or Jesus’ commandment to love one another are all examples and expressions of the same idea) we will be able to see and strive to ameliorate the problems in the world.

 

“Strange is our situation here on earth. However, there is one thing that we do know, we are here for the sake of others. Above all, for those upon whose smile and well-being our own happiness depends. And, also, for the countless unknown souls with whose fate we are connected by a bond of sympathy.” Albert Einstein

Seeing the problems in the world is sometimes disheartening but as Dorthy Day said, “No one has a right to sit down and feel hopeless. There is too much work to do.”

 

I gave the homeless man a meal and in return I received a jolt that lifted me from a growing complacency and redoubled my commitment to do whatever I can to make things better.  

 

 

 

One last thought to this very long post: 

The United States has spent $600,361,401,515 on the war in Iraq.  Just think of how much good we could do with that money.  Instead of “defending ourselves from our enemies” through war (which only creates more enemies) we as a nation could become a powerful force of good in the world.  

Just think of how many schools could be built or improved in the US and the world or how many millions of gallons of clean water could be provided to those who need it or how many medical clinics could be supplied and staffed.  The possibilities are endless…



Update to “Scientists are Insane”
February 9, 2009, 2:28 pm
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A few months ago I wrote about the insanity of drosophila geneticists.  Well, apparently I was right.  NPR’s “All Things Considered” is doing a story about the crazy names.

The story airs later today and you can listen to it here.  

The story description:

February 9 · Fruit Fly geneticists spend hours each day staring at flies under a microscope. And they want you to know they have their own ways of being geeky, like giving funny names to things. But is that a good thing for the study of genetics as it applies to humans?

 



Random story time
January 30, 2009, 5:49 am
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I haven’t blogged lately because I had my tonsils taken out three weeks ago.  It was not fun, though I did find the induction of anesthesia to be strangely enjoyable.  Now that I feel like a human again here is a random and hopefully funny story.  It is entirely true.

The scene: Des Moines airport.  (For the record, “Des Moines” is pronounced “De Moyne”  the esses are silent.)  I’m about to get on a plane home for winter break, a wonderful month away from the cold and snow of Grinnell.

As I approached the ticket counter, I anticipated trouble.  I’m always selected for “random” searches.  I did not expect what happened next.

The ticket counter guy informed me that there was bad weather in Memphis and that the plane had to be under a certian weight limit.  TCG (ticket counter guy) told me all about the wonderful voucher for a hotel and a flight the next day that I would be given for my trouble.  Apparently, TCG was trying to cut me from the flight list.

I was tired.  A week of exams and very little sleep made me a bit annoyed.  I stared at TCG wondering why they thought that my 120 pounds (on a 1.73 m/5′ 8″ frame) of body plus around 10 pounds of luggage was enough to endanger the flight.  I respectfully turned down the “offer”/”order” and told TCG that I had to be in Memphis by 5:00pm.  I had important things to do.  Like sleep.

TCG begrudgingly allowed me to board the pane after realizing that I probably wouldn’t upset the balance of the plane.  When I got to my seat (D1, I think), I found that the person next to me was a very….large lady.  Upwards of 300 pounds.  I realized that life is hilarious.  TCG tried to keep me off the plane for saftey reasons but my neighbor was apparently not a threat.  TCG told me that the plane had to be extra light because of the turbulence in Memphis.  I squeezed into my seat and setteled down for a mid flight nap.  I put my elbow on the armrest and noted how very soft it was.

Much to my chagrin, the “armrest” turned out to by my neighbor’s arm.  She was not amused.  I offered her a candy cane I had in my coat pocket.  She was placated by this gesture of concilliation.  I spent the rest of the flight with my arms crossed in an attempt to avoid being a repeat offender of the personal space law.

We landed safely and I had a wonderful winter break.  But I will never again assume that an airline upgraded the padding of their armrests without checking to make sure that padding isn’t actually the flesh of the person sitting next to me.

Thus ends the random story.



Update- Israeli mortars destroy school
January 6, 2009, 9:57 pm
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Even the most non-political person must realize that this is wrong and can not be allowed to continue.

An army with at least $2 billion dollars of money from the US, bombed a school in a refugee camp run by the United Nations.

This is not just.